Screw it.
I haven't written anything in so long.
I have a bunch of stuff that I started writing...
But I haven't finished any of it.

I have an idea for a story though. Perhaps I shall work on that.
I have been wanting to draw a lot lately as well.
None of you will ever see my drawings though.
I can't scan them or anything.

Oh well, I'm off to dreamland.

Good night.

I want a camera! *Cry*
I love pictures.
I love taking pictures.
But because I don't have a camera, I can't do that.
It's very rare that I want something this bad...
I never want stuff. I never ask for stuff.

So yeah, I want a camera.
Something decent to take pictures with.
Preferrable something I don't need to keep buying film for.
Something that I can easily upload pics to my computer with.
I don't know anything about what makes a good camera.
I know a guy who has a Cybershot (DeviantID:tempd) and I love how his pics come out.

*Sigh*
I'll just keep wishing...

So everything didn't go as planned in my last journal. I didn't get a car, and it looks like college will be postponed.

My mom says I might be able to have my old car back. I'm not relying on that because I find it very hard to believe. She's out of the hospital by the way, and she's doing alright.

If I don't get my credit for English 4 and Economics this last 9 weeks, then I have to take them next year. Along with Pre-Calculus. Guaranteed I will be a repeat senior next year because of PRE-CAL!!! GRRR!!!

But maybe, just maybe... I can go to summer school. For the first time in my life. Even if I don't go to summer school, I can still graduate Christmas 2007. All this will only happen IF my school decides to let me back in. They withdrew me because I missed too many days.

I want to go back to HHS soooo bad. I really want to graduate from there. I don't want to have to go to KEYS instead. I'm just praying for a second chance.

Well, things are getting slightly better than they have been. I don't feel so "emo" anymore. My attitude is more like "I can take on the world!"

I'm finally 18
I've been accepted to a college
I'll be getting a car of my own very soon
I made the A/B Honor Roll at school
And my mom and I are getting along ok right now.

One sad thing is that my mom is in the hospital, for the millionth time, and with the same thing. It's nothing too major. I'm going to go visit her today. I think both of us have put what happened behind us, because it seems like we are both better off now.

The car needs a lot of work, but Ryan and his dad say they can fix it up. It's kind of a crappy car, but Ryan and I need it so we don't have to depend on his mom to drive us everywhere anymore. I'd be able to get a job now that I have a way to get to one.

One other little annoyance... my boyfriend's friend's girlfriend keeps trying to tell me off. It's a completely stupid matter. I wonder why I even reply to her messages. I don't care about it though. It's not causing me any problems. If she wants to raise her blood pressure over it, then by all means, she can go right ahead.

Well, I'm in a pretty good mood. Just thought I'd update my journal to something less depressing. I'm gonna go read or something, I'm starting to get bored.

-Sam

I've been kind of pissed off at the world lately.
Everything seems to annoy me.
I just need time to myself, and I can't have it!!
My boyfriend and I live together, and even though he sometimes spends the whole day with his dad or his friends, I feel like I still need more time.
I need a vacation from life.

This place doesn't feel like home... it's just where I live.
It's just a house, with other people.
I feel like I can't be myself here.
I don't fit in.
I'm not wanted.

I want a place I can call my own...
Somewhere that's not in the middle of everyone else's lives.